Saturday, 25 April 2009

An Introduction

Hi my name is poons and I am an alcoholic.

I also suffer from depression and have suicidal tendencies.

I tried to end it all on Monday 20th April 2009 and so I will document the consequences of that action.

The main objective of this blog is to allow my friends and family to keep up with where I am at, and maybe on the way inspire other people who find themselves in a similar situation so that they also make steps to address the issues of alcohol dependency and depression which I have found go arm in arm.

I will endeavour to post daily updates about my progress and details of the help I am receiving with pointers to hopefully help others who wish to get their own life back on track.

For nigh on 15 years I have drunk at least 4 cans of strong lager every night - 7 days a week - plus visits to the pub - plus vodka binges and the occasional 3 bottles of wine nights. This has lead to financial problems, bailed out by very loving parents, loss of friends and a flat that is quite frankly disgusting to the point of being to embarrassed to let my best friends in. (Think 1 year of never recycling and dead take aways - I may post pictures)

At the age of 38 I realise that I am no longer a spoilt teenager. I am a grown man, capable of good work with computers and also capable of starting to love himself again. I also realise that I am loved by my family and my friends - and I will take up your offers of help - no matter who much I will squirm.

There is something about being woken by 2 police officers who have just broken into your home at 3am in the morning that brings that home. If I hadn't posted details of my actions on Facebook then who knows whether I would be here to post this, and so to my niece I say thank you, and one day I'll come and visit - if you'll have me!

I have been advised by my GP to start to cut down my intake of alcohol, and have been prescribed Citalopram to take the edge off the depression. If I'm not dry in 2 weeks then the NHS Alcohol Team will apply medication over 10 days leaving me dry within that time scale. I hope to do it without the medication.

At that point it is my choice. Never drink again, or think I can and get myself back to where I was on Monday - a no brainer I hope. I am addicted to alcohol, I know that and so will do my very best not to drink it again at that point.

A few technical points - comments will be moderated and anonymous comments will not be allowed. The day to day blogging will mostly be units consumed and effect of the medicine to start with.

Finally - I am using my established blogger name because it makes it easier for me to blog. I know many of you know my name, hence this will not be an anonymous blog - but I ask that you keep to my nickname for now.

Thanks for reading this far, and wish me luck.
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19 comments:

  1. BlogMonkey26 April 2009 at 11:13

    Good luck mate!

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  2. mog26 April 2009 at 17:04

    well done give us a bell love mog& mum letter sent should arrive tuesday

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  3. allan kelly26 April 2009 at 18:28

    Chr*** almighty, this is not the kind of thing I expect to find in my blog feeds - but I'm damn impressed you've decided to turn the corner and I'm going to keep tabs on you - I want to hear those units falling off

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  4. Justin27 April 2009 at 11:22

    All the best, poons. One day at a time, mate.

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  5. Anonymous28 April 2009 at 01:15

    Random person from the internet, just wanted to wish you the best of luck. It's a hard thing to do but I've seen success in others, I'm sure you can succeed too.

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  6. Anonymous28 April 2009 at 01:23

    Good luck Poons. That's one of the hard parts over. Well done.

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  7. Alan Eagle28 April 2009 at 22:31

    All the best with what lies ahead. It won't be easy, but put your mind to it and you can accomplish anything.

    All the best.

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  8. Alistair Coleman8 May 2009 at 15:12

    Good luck my friend. On the 12 Steps myself, and it ain't easy.

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  9. Sim-O8 May 2009 at 15:27

    best of luck, poons.

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  10. Pete Connolly8 May 2009 at 16:34

    Good luck mate, it's a brave step making it public - sort of ups the ante, really but probably a good move towards succeeding. Best wishes

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  11. Anonymous8 May 2009 at 16:50

    Inappropriately enough, I have had the pleasure of your company only once - in a Waterloo pub around the time of the '05 election. Luck is duly wished.

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  12. Mr Eugenides8 May 2009 at 17:01

    Here via Bloggerheads. Will read on with great interest and full of admiration for what you are doing - remember that you are never, ever, without support.

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  13. JonnyB9 May 2009 at 17:08

    Again, here via Bloggerheads. Very best of luck... there but for the grace (etc) go so many people - more than anybody ever admits. Best wishes to you.

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  14. Anonymous9 May 2009 at 17:30

    You're now on a journey of self-discovery. It'll be difficult, possibly painful but it will also be the best thing you've ever done. Life is so precious and we are amazing. Make your life extraordinary. Good luck.

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  15. Bel10 May 2009 at 11:31

    Also here via Bloggerheads. Dear poons, wishing you a successful journey to recovery and happiness.

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  16. Matt Wardman10 May 2009 at 22:58

    I can only repeat the sentiments above.

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  17. Daniel Hoffmann-Gill11 May 2009 at 15:28

    Good luck with your journey, go slow, be prepared to go backwards and to stay stuck before you go forwards.

    Peace.

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  18. tom watson11 May 2009 at 17:49

    I wish you all success. Keep with it Poons.

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  19. Rachel19 May 2009 at 00:38

    ((( Poons)))

    Brave, wonderful bloke.

    Keep on keeping on.


    x

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